Hey there, I have really do love to design everything and anything, so here I am planning out my dream house, still rough and barely finished... Just wanted to show that I love my graphic design as well as landscaping, so if you love this then be glad to know that there will be more posts on the way.

05 / 08 / 10

My life is staged

moments sometimes stolen

battered then returned fully enraged

lost in self doubt

sitcoms try to tune it out

vicariously living through my art

mind always stranded

rowing the a bis through oil paint on this canvas

crevasses created

extent unrated

truth seeps thru

but that's just life

issues always faced

nothing's ever new

cleansed and made pure

arts my cure

a blessing with no disguise

Gods gift to me

of that I'm sure

Pathetic Crush

I hope this finds you well, well enough to see the day through

The world misses your sweet charming smile

Lord knows I've adored you all the while

Life passes us by but ive longed to sigh

For that joyous moment of relief and complete faith

In the truth that you heart feels the same as mine

The way it fluttered on that warm summers day

When i hugged you and you carried me away

Into a life promised with bountiful blessings

We both dreamed would come with out dismay

But dreams are dreams and you remain still

Away in the shade of great suppression

Mind knows not to pay close attention

But to support you with out tension

So I remain transfixed by your presence and pray

The life your mind, body and soul held close

To that warm loving smile that you give once in a while.

I once wanted nothing but to gaze upon your loving smile

To understand what it would be like to be near you

Hold your gaze with unquestionable fear

Taking long strides and hiding my glare

Anxious to greet you love you and be with you

Nothing but friendship is all that I will get from you

You make that clear with a passion so dear

no choice but to love you secretly much I fear

Wedding vows for the one you adore

For want of a love so pure and true

I see none other than the likes of you

Sacred words of love one says in vain

In all honesty I say this with absolutely no pain

I met your gaze and felt you were made for me

Meeting you has set me free

My heart melts when your presence is near

On this special day my love please don't shed one tear

Everyday since our love has grown strong

It resides in my soul and that can't be wrong

So with all the ups and downs, future smiles and frowns

lives we have lived, days to come, we vow to share

For better, for worse, till death do our souls part

Today we celebrate this union so rare

With all that we have been thru

I now promise to love you for ever

And say I do

12.04.10

Truth Be Told By Me

Thoughts untouched

Problems over turned

The world now sees the cracks

Pressure builds

Emotions fulfilled

Tears flow freely

I sit here now

Contemplating the future

Happiness

No where to be found

Crushed dreams

Broken Promises

Exist in places meant to be occupied

By passion and faith

Reality lost

Truth crumbles

Pieces scattered every way possible

Thrown in to oblivion

Shattered to dust

No body sees me

I am more of a problem than anything

Not a priority

Just something else not worthy to support

A figure, more or less unappreciated

But I see myself

A cry for help and comfort

Doubtful that anything good will ever come

Of me

I have a name

But nobody hears it

I had a dream

Everyone seems to crush it

Aspiration to become someone great

But how can this come to be

When nobody sees me

Just as a pathetic excuse for a daughter

Just as a remarkably weak younger sister

Just another member of a family where

Still

Nobody sees me

It's incredibly funny how I got given the talent

to make art

I even happen to want to live a life where art is my passion

But this is a life that my father perceives to hold no promising future

Why is it so easy to hate and not to love?

Why must this be the fate that i must follow

Can I not please the ones I am suppose to love

And do what i do best?

Ideas Unvoiced, Voiced

Lonely hours

Spent wading through mess

Sigh at the mere thought

Of your sweet cares

Truly emerged in passion and faith

Ties and bounds to you

Feel nothing but safe

The time

Time spent pursuing you

Only ever met boundaries smothered in depression

I'm thru

Your cool whisper on my finger tips

Leave me drowning in suppression

You suffocate me

Unwillingly

Embracing your charm

Only your past affect leaves me speechless

Weak

One moment of clarity

All that I seek

But a passion

So beautiful

Wonderful but wrong

Leaves the lengths of my love for you

Undoubtably strong

Pencil on paper, sections of the work have been extracted and the drawing has been assembled in to a partial cube. Love the shadows created by the cut out shapes, brings a whole new perspective to drawing and landscape design for me.